Today

Today was the day, "The Day" that we shut our doors to our adorable little shop. It was a day filled with laughter, lots of tears, and lots of great people.

I am completely drained....I still feel like life is swirling around me a bit.

I am so happy and grateful to have met the people that we have met over the past 2 years....they have kept us going in more ways that I can count.

I am so sad for my mom today, she invested so much into the shop that she will never be able to recover. There isn't enough time for her to ever rebuild her retirement...

I know that I will land on my feet and keep moving forward. I have thoughts already for something in the future, just not ready to take the leap, I need a few months to recover from this.

One of the Ladies that I have enjoyed so much over the past 2 years told me to "take my time to grieve" after we shut our doors. I never thought of it that way, but it is true...I feel like I am losing an actual person in my life...this is such a huge part of our lives!

The men had the most difficult time...we had a bit of a men's club that came to visit us every morning. I loved seeing them sit among the Polka Dots and yarn...they were very sad. One had to take his coffee to go today and could only manage a pat on my head as he tried to tell me that he would see me around town.

Lily told everyone that "The Firemen are tearing down The Java Stop"....this is not true, she just feels that if we aren't there - nobody should be there!

I could go on and on, this could become a very lengthy post, but I am going to go curl up with my kids and watch some TV and try to sleep some tonight.